How to deal with my past.. Please help?

Ok so before I say anything. I am a 14 year old girl. I have finally straightened up my life again to the point where I do not consider suicide an option. I don't want to pour out my deepest darkest secrets to complete stangers but it might help. So this is not a joke..



Last summer I got into some drugs. I smoked and I drank. Where were my parents? Well they were drunk in a bar somewhere. I met with some bad people and I became their friends. I started to do street fights using knives. But one fight went wrong and I was hurt badly. That night I was raped by my so called friend.. He beat me, raped me, then took me home. When I found out i confronted him. My other friend scared him away and the boy who raped me killed himself. I truely loved him like a brother. I trusted him. No one understands. What can I do?How to deal with my past.. Please help?
Go to a therapist please.How to deal with my past.. Please help?
Get some help. And never forget to pray. To give thanks that in spite of the problems you are still strong and alive. Good luck.
i think u should talk to a counselor. being young is hard %26amp; ur emotions run heavy neway, but when u mix with stuff i know it can be rough. i grew up in a similiar surrounding %26amp; the only way i made it is through my relationship with God. i did A LOT of praying, it didn't help immediately but eventually he showed me the path to take %26amp; i took it. sounds like u are already making good decisions by ditching the drugs/alcohol.
That sounds awful, I'm sorry. What you can do is try to remember that the past is the past...it's over and done with, but what isn't over is your future. Don't let events in the past drag down your happiness in the future. I know it's not easy. I know there's no switch you can flip and suddenly forget the past and move on.



Try to do new things, surround yourself with new people if possible, basically anything that you can focus on and get into so that the pain of the past isn't so prevalent in your mind. And I don't mean drugs and alcohol either...drinking will not solve your problems and drugs, well I won't say they're ALL terrible, but the majority of them will only make things significantly worse in the long run.

Maybe talk to a therapist about this stuff. Or talk to anyone, really. That often helps.



Do you have a family member or relative you could live with for a while? Your parents don't seem to be doing much good and a change of scenery could definitely help. There is no easy answer, and that sucks, but from the way it sounds, the worst is over. The world is not always such a terrible place and life is not always so bad, even though it may not seem like it now...just keep living to experience the good things life has to offer and know that with time, things will get better.
I am glad to hear that you are straightening your life out.Honestly, you are just 14. You have so much to live for!!! Since your parents aren't much of a great support system, you should first start associating yourself with better people and possibly live with a better family member. I also suggest going to a therapist or teen counseling. Try taking up a sport or an extra ciricular activity. This will keep you out of trouble and you will be around better people. Good Luck!!!